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Subject:ORC
Time:01:12 pm
Current Mood:excitedexcited
There is a reason I have not posted much lately. In the middle of all the preparations for Christmas and New Year, which I always find very traumatic anyway, and having our holiday of a lifetime in Middle Earth New Zealand looming in early March, I have also been entrenched in preparations for our journey to Pasadena. Thats right. Mr NotAlone and I are going to ORC. Why have I not mentioned this before? I'd like to sound very noble by saying I don't want to upset all those who want to go but can't. That is one of the reasons - you really do have my sympathy because at first I didn't think I'd be going either.

Cut for rambling and scary pic of very old fangirl

I guessed Elijah would be going to ORC as soon as it was announced that World Without Sundays would be there. I also knew that if it wasn't for the holiday in NZ in March I would have immediately considered going. As it was, I didn't dare suggest it. To fly out to LA, our first time ever travelling beyond Europe, a matter of weeks before we fly there en route to NZ - and for a LOTR convention - I knew people would just think I'd finally flipped. But it seemed so ironic that the NZ trip would prevent me from meeting Elijah again. And there was the money to be considered, of course. But shortly before Christmas my husband asked me how much birthday/Christmas money I expected to get. I asked why he wanted to know and he said he wondered if I'd want to put it towards "this thing in America"!! Would I WANT to? I was gobsmacked. I knew he didn't really have an inkling of just how expensive it would be - and the conversation sort of dwindled from there. But he'd lit the flame of hope in me - and it wasn't going to go out. Although I agonised over it for days, I think I knew at that moment that we'd be going. Then the usual paranoia started, and this is the main reason I didn't shout it from the rooftops - its the age thing. The fact is, I know that age-wise I am in a small minority - the vast majority will be decades younger than me. I know I'm silly to let this worry me - I know of at least one of my LJ friends of the same age (late 50's)is going and she seems totally laid back about it *waves to T*.
But I was reading the LJ of someone in her teens recently - she was talking about another Lij fan (not me) and was horrified when she found out she was in her 50s. I can't really blame her, I'd probably react the same if I was that age. And I can't help but wonder what Elijah thinks when confronted by someone like me. At least when I met him at CM he didn't scream for security or run for the nearest exit - and perhaps, just perhaps, he may feel quite pleased that he doesn't only appeal to teenies. But I usually manage to console myself with Ian McKellan's wonderful quote: "If I was on a march at the moment I would be saying to everyone: 'Be honest with each other. Admit there are limitless possibilities in relationships, and love as many people as you can in whatever way you want, and get rid of your inhibitions, and we'll all be happy." So, I am trying very hard to rid myself of my inhibitions. I may be old, but I am not dead and I love LOTR, I love Frodo, I love Elijah and I always will. I also realise that I'm extremely lucky in having such a supportive and tolerant husband. He is not an LOTR fan - doesn't hate it, just not really interested, but he is really looking forward to the trip just for the experience of going to America for the first time.

I have the FOTR cd playing, its near the end - 'The Breaking of the Fellowship' where F&S walk up the mountain to gaze across at Mordor - the drum beat, the cloaks - after 3 years the effect is still exactly the same - my skin just tingles, from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. I am going to see Frodo again. The taxi comes at 7am tomorrow. I am so ready for this:)

Anyway, sorry for the long disjointed ramble - and to any of my LJ friends who are going, if you spot this rather scary-looking old gal accompanied by a bewildered husband there, perhaps you might like to say hello:)

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ex_salwood
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Time:2005-01-11 03:12 pm (UTC)
Go you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have an absolutely wonderful time! I'm an oldie too! tee hee, and I dress up in costumes!!! *snort* And I don't care!!!!!
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:19 am (UTC)
"and I dress up in costumes!!!"

I know - I saw you at CM4 and you looked wonderful!!
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forestrane
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Time:2005-01-11 03:15 pm (UTC)
You are sooooo lucky to have such a supportive husband.

And, I promise to make the rain stop before this coming weekend. I do hope you enjoy your visit to my part of the world.
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:22 am (UTC)
Yes - he's one of the best:) And the weather forecast for California seems to be changing from one extreme to the other - I'm really wondering what to expect!!
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ourdramaqueen
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Time:2005-01-11 03:32 pm (UTC)
Wow, you have a fantastic hubbie!!! And you're not scary-looking at all, silly. :-)

I'm sure you'll be surprised to find just how many others who go to ORC are over 30, 40, 50 or even 60! :-) So you don't worry about that at all, and just have lots of fun! Looking forward to hear your report after you got back!

Oh and New Zealand!!! Is it a Red Carpet Tour? You'll have to report about that too!
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:25 am (UTC)
Thanks for the encouraging comments:) We're not doing the Red Carpet Tour but its a self-drive holiday and most of the places we're going to were LOTR locations - including Hobbiton:)
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piccalo
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Time:2005-01-11 03:42 pm (UTC)
<3. you don't have to be 14 to love elijah, and appreciate his work. age is simply a number and should be of no relevance in many things. SO, enjoy every minute of your trip and steal dom for me!
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:27 am (UTC)
Oh, you are so right - and as for Dom - I'll see what I can do:)
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ink_gypsy
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Time:2005-01-11 03:44 pm (UTC)
Believe me, you're not the only one of a "certain age" who loves LOTR and Elijah. I'm in your age bracket, and I dearly wish I was going to ORC. I went into a terrible funk when it was announced and I knew I'd be missing yet another chance to finally meet Elijah. What hurt most of all was that many who'd already met him were going to go, while I'd never met him and wanted to so much. I've gotten better about it, but I'd be lying if I said it doesn't still hurt when I see ORC in anyone's post. ORC and New Zealand. Sounds like this is really going to be your year.
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:34 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry you can't come to ORC - if only I could wave a magic wand so that everyone can come who really wants to. Not sure if this is just rumour - but I've heard a whisper that there will be another one next year. Perhaps your time will come. And btw - your icon - he's so beautiful:)
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baranduin
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Time:2005-01-11 04:38 pm (UTC)
I'll look for you there!
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:35 am (UTC)
You're going!! Thats great - hope I get to meet you:)
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plaidpjs
Subject:You don't know me but....
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Time:2005-01-11 05:03 pm (UTC)
I spotted your entry in my "Friends of" list and I couldn't resist replying after that lovely post.

**raises hand**

Another fan here that's well past (and actually has a hard time remembering) her adolescence. Alas, I'm not going but I love nothing more then seeing people going after their dreams at any age....

Have a wonderful time!
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not_alone
Subject:Re: You don't know me but....
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Time:2005-01-12 02:39 am (UTC)
Thank you for your kind comments - I'm sure I'll have a great time:)
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seregila
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Time:2005-01-11 05:10 pm (UTC)
You don't look scary at all. I'm very happy for you. Not only for being able to go, but for having an absolute prince of a husband.

Have a good time and tell us all about it when you get back.
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:40 am (UTC)
Many thanks - and I'll certainly be writing a detailed report when I return:)
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primula_baggins
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Time:2005-01-11 05:35 pm (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad you're going! I'm "old but not dead" too. In fact, I know a lot of LOTR fans in the LA area and most of them are not all "that" young. So you are not going to feel out of place. Believe me, you made the right choice. There are a lot of LJ people I'd like to see, but I'm having the same misgivings as you. But I'm guessing that we'll all have the LOTR/Elijah bond and it won't really matter anyway. Hope to see you there.

*gets back to doing real work like I should be instead of writing this commment*
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:45 am (UTC)
Many thanks - and I really hope I'll get to meet you:)
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teresarosewood
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Time:2005-01-11 05:58 pm (UTC)
You are lovely! And your hubby sounds wonderful too. I could almost swear that I've seen you before!


And there is nothing wrong with age. It's how you feel and how doing this makes you feel that counts. And gosh knows that I feel like I could fly everytime I see Elijah or give a sigh of happiness about what I think about when I think of how many lovely people I've met through this fandom.


Love knows now limits...just remember that Frodo was years older than Sam...and yet that didn't stop him from loving him all the same.


And if I see you, I will not hesitate to come and say hello. :)



PS...TAKE ME TO NEW ZEALAND WITH YOU! :D
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:50 am (UTC)
Thank you for your lovely comments - and I saw your pic on your LJ - you look really sweet and the dress is beautiful. Wish I could take you to NZ with me - and all the other LOTR fans:)
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joomer
Subject:I'm so happy for you!
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Time:2005-01-11 06:50 pm (UTC)
I had written quite a little message to you, rambling on and on and then when I went to post it LJ sent it to cyperheaven, I guess. I don't know what happened to it. :(

Anyway ~ I'm so happy for you getting to go to ORC and to NZ!!! I also envy you having such a sweet, understanding and supportive husband. Hope that both of you have a wonderful trip!!

And I wanted to tell you that when I was typing the earlier message (that is gone to other places now) little J (my 4 yr old) asked who that was in the picture. He asked if Papa (hubby) was there with you because he saw the shirt in the background and said it looked like "Papa's" shirt. :D

I'd love to go to LA sometime and meet Elijah someone famous, but I don't see that ever happening. So I live vicariously through friends who get to go and take pics and tell about it. So have a blast! Enjoy seeing Elijah again. Enjoy New Zealand. And I hope you meet up with a lot of your internet friends, too. I think that'd be wonderful to connect with friends I've met online but not seen in RL.

Bon Voyage!

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not_alone
Subject:Re: I'm so happy for you!
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Time:2005-01-12 02:52 am (UTC)
Thank you very much Jooms - and btw, I've been meaning to write to you - I got your card and the lovely photo - will be in touch when I get back:)
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(Anonymous)
Subject::D
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Time:2005-01-11 07:25 pm (UTC)
Well...I'm no spring chicken either, my dear. Which hotel are you staying at? We'll have to make sure we get in touch. A bunch of our are staying in a the Sheraton. In my room in trianne, azrhiaz, berreh, and claudia603. It would be great to actually "hang out" with you!

Alchemilla (Lady's Mantle)
ps - this is anonymous because I can't logon
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not_alone
Subject:Re: :D
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Time:2005-01-12 02:54 am (UTC)
We're staying at the Hilton - hope I get to meet you:)
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lisabellex
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Time:2005-01-11 08:02 pm (UTC)
What a lovely post - just had to respond because it rings such bells with me too. I'm 42, live in England, and adore Elijah, Dom & Billeh - enjoy reading and writing RPS fanfic about them too - and I'd love to be going to ORC, but am not. I will have to enjoy it vicariously through friend's reports and postings. I wish you an incredible and memorable time.

I will be going to Comic Con in July with a group of LJers, and we're hoping that the guys will attend this year, as they have the previous two years. If not, we'll have a ball anyway.

Wish I was going to ORC!!! Have fun!

;)

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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 02:58 am (UTC)
Many thanks - and I hope you have a great time at CC. I hope that some, or preferably all, of the guys will be there for you:)
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frodoholic
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Time:2005-01-11 08:18 pm (UTC)
I am so envious of you going to New Zealand! It is a dream of mine to see "the Shire". Have a wonderful time and take lots of pictures!

I love Sir Ian's quote and so true it is. And NO, you are not scary at all. Elijah should be flattered that he has ladies of all ages in love with him and he doesn't just appeal to the 'teenies'. We mature women KNOW a good thing when we see it, especially when we are beyond the "fangirling" stage of life, our love for him is deep and he's not just a passing "flavor of the month".
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not_alone
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Time:2005-01-12 03:01 am (UTC)
"We mature women KNOW a good thing when we see it, especially when we are beyond the "fangirling" stage of life, our love for him is deep and he's not just a passing "flavor of the month".

I believe that is very true. And yes - I'm really looking forward to seeing the Shire - we are actually going to Hobbiton (Matamata).
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altuniverse
Subject:lovely young fangirl
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Time:2005-01-11 08:28 pm (UTC)
Hi, this is Mary from AEF. (altuniverse is shared between Mary -aka prairiefire- and Sharon -aka shuntmd)

I'm so excited for you. Remember I told you last year when you met Billy that you would be meeting Elijah soon. I'm sure you will get to chat with him and he will hug you. You are going to have so much fun!

You look beautiful! And happy. Love the necklace.

Mary
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not_alone
Subject:Re: lovely young fangirl
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Time:2005-01-12 03:05 am (UTC)
Hi Mary - lovely to hear from you - hope you and Sharon are well. And yes, I do remember you saying that - I've already met him once, of course, here in the UK, but never dreamt I'd get to meet him again in LA. Thanks for the kind comments:)
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