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Time:09:56 pm


Beatrice:
April 1991 - 11 March 2010:






It's only now that I can bring myself to write about the loss of our beloved Beatrice even though it's well over a month since she died. We had known it was coming for a long time - she was almost 19 years old and had advanced kidney disease. In the end, she just stopped eating and drinking and slept deeply on her favourite chair (which had been my favourite before she claimed it!), just occasionally stirring to change her position. At about 7pm on the final evening she suddenly lifted her head and there was a strange little tremor. This happened another 3 or 4 times. And then, she just stopped breathing. We were so relieved that we hadn't had to take her to the vet to be put to sleep - she always hated going there.

I'm certain Bea was becoming more and more human - perhaps that's what happens when a cat has spent so long in the company of human beings - and I don't think I'd have been all that surprised if she'd suddenly spoken to us - I always felt she was trying to!! The house has been eerily quiet without her. It's only now that I realise how much the presence of that small creature filled our home. Attending to her needs was always my very first job of the day. It had to be - because of a thyroid condition she had an extremely loud voice and we wouldn't get any peace til she'd had her brekky! But she didn't always communicate in such a noisy way. She would often sit on the arm of my chair, or on the table if I was at the pc, and tap and stroke my face with her paw - always being really careful to keep her claws in. She and her sister were the gentlest cats I've ever known. During their long lives they never scratched or bit us even when we struggled to get tablets down them which they hated.

We lost her sister Mabel in 2007 at the age of 16 (see this entry http://not-alone.livejournal.com/63768.html#cutid1). So now we are catless and that is how it will remain because they were completely irreplaceable. Bea never really got along with Mabel - I think she wanted us all to herself. But now they're together again - underneath the flowering cherry tree in the garden. We will always miss them.
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shirebound
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Time:2010-04-18 09:07 pm (UTC)
What a beautiful tribute to your heart-kitties. I'm so sorry to hear about this loss.

*tight hugs*
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:18 pm (UTC)
Many thanks, SB:) *hugs*
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baranduin
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Time:2010-04-18 09:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you for sharing your memories of Beatrice with us. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you:)
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elijahs_mumble
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Time:2010-04-18 09:34 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry :(
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Patrick.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you.

>>I hope the same thing happens for you one day, too.<<

With the passage of time, I suppose there's always the possibiity we may change our minds:) *hugs*
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Mews. She was very beautiful:)
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aliensouldream
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Time:2010-04-18 10:13 pm (UTC)
Oh no!!! I'm so sorry. She looks adorable. *hugs you*
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you. She was so adorable. *hugs*
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bellewood
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Time:2010-04-18 10:36 pm (UTC)
Oh sweetie.. i'm so sorry. I hope in time that you'll find comfort in you many memories.. (((hugs)))
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Belle. Our memories of our furry babies will always be very precious:) *hugs*
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_celebrian
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Time:2010-04-18 10:46 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:29 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Celebrian. *hugs*
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telstar_gold
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Time:2010-04-18 10:57 pm (UTC)
*hugs* That was a lovely tribute.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Telstar. *hugs*
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graymouse
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Time:2010-04-18 11:01 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, love. It's been months but I still miss our beloved Rider and Stevie - both gone within only a few days of each other.

They really do get under your skin, don't they? It's not until it's over that you realize how much they gave you for so little.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much. I'm so sorry for your loss too - how heartbreaking to lose two beloved pets within days:(

>>It's not until it's over that you realize how much they gave you for so little.<<

That is so true.
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frodobaggins252
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Time:2010-04-18 11:10 pm (UTC)
I'm so very sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful tuxedo cat and obviously well-loved. **gentle hugs and purrs from Gir, Phoebe, Puck, Isabelle, and Harmony**
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I've never heard the term 'tuxedo cat' before but it's a perfect description!!

I hope all your furry babies will give you years of joy:)
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ink_gypsy
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Time:2010-04-18 11:12 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss.

My Sam is Bea's age and has health problems, and I'm playing that same waiting game, torn between hoping he'll go peacefully at home so I won't have to take him to the vet to be put to sleep, and yet afraid he might be suffering.

From the portrait you paint, Beatrice had a good life with you, a happy life, and that's what matters.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:43 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much. I'm so sorry to hear that you're now going through the same thing - it's such a sad and worrying time. When the time comes, I do hope your Sam will go as peacefully as Bea did, in his own home.

*hugs*
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ladysnaps
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Time:2010-04-19 12:47 am (UTC)
aww.. how heartbreaking, but no matter what, i always love to hear how long pets live in the company of humans. it proves to me they were both caring and loving of each other.

(((hugs)))
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks Lady:)

>>i always love to hear how long pets live in the company of humans. it proves to me they were both caring and loving of each other.<<

That's so true. I was shocked the other day to hear that the average age of a feral tomcat is only three years!!



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yeuxdebleu
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Time:2010-04-19 01:02 am (UTC)
I'm so very, very sorry. Cats are my favorite animals and I've had them my entire life. They become dear family members and losing one is extremely painful.

So now we are catless and that is how it will remain because they were completely irreplaceable.

I understand what you're saying, but I could never, ever be without at least one cat. They complete my life.
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 02:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Yeux. Cats have always been my favourite animal too. I don't think non-cat lovers ever understand how each and every cat has a unique personality. They leave such a void when they're gone.

It does feel very strange to be without cats after all these years and, who knows - perhaps with the passage of time we might feel differently about having another cat. But at the moment it just feels that it would somehow be a betrayall:(
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annwyn55
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Time:2010-04-19 06:41 am (UTC)
Oh Paulie, I'm so sorry. *tight hugs*
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not_alone
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Time:2010-04-19 03:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Annie. *hugs*
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