Yes - he's cancelled. It doesn't matter how many times you tell yourself that there is always this possibility, that if you pour a huge amount of money into these things you're taking a massive gamble - it's still devastating when you get the news. I'm gutted - and what is worse is the feeling that I have no right to be. I've met Elijah at 3 previous events - and, if the powers that be allow, I will be seeing him in London in a couple of weeks. Although between now and then I'm going to be scared to open my pc in case he cancels that too. There is also the possibility of RingCon in November. How much does this woman want? I hear you ask yourselves. It would take me far too long to be able to answer that question - so perhaps I won't even try. Obviously, having forked out over £1000 on two unrefundable plane tickets to NJ, I had to decide what we would do if this should happen. We have booked an extra two days at the hotel so we could see some of NY - and the plan was that if he should cancel we'd simply make it more of a holiday - just go to a few of the events such as Billy's & John's talks, but perhaps go on a couple of trips rather than spend the whole time at the hotel. It sounded ok - then. But now I feel no excitement, no joy - the magic has gone.
Having said all this, I want to make it clear that I do NOT blame Elijah in any way whatsoever. Some people are saying he's been selfish. That is extremely unfair. The organisers of these events always make it clear that the guests only appear subject to work commitments. We all know that even actors of Elijah's calibre have difficulty in getting good, or even reasonable, film work. And film schedules can be changed, which is what has happened in this case. Originally this film was supposed to start in June. I would imagine, indeed I'm certainly hoping, that this would explain the long delay between LF&CC announcing the photo ops and actually putting them on sale. They kept saying they needed to finalise some details with Elijah - and this went on for days. I feel sure this must have been because he needed to be sure of the new dates for this film. So it was really out of his hands. He has had a brilliant track record with these events - has never cancelled before which, compared to others, is really unusual. I feel that I've been very lucky because of this and knew, that at some point, my luck would run out. I feel so sorry for those who were going to meet him for the first time and especially anyone who may not get another chance. I'm sure he feels really bad about this. He hates to let people down and he knows the fans will be disappointed but I doubt very much that he understands the intensity of feeling that there is for him - he is too modest and lacking in ego - he would just think that - yeah, there's other people for them to see. Should I get to see him in London, I hope I'll have a chance to tell him how greatly missed he will be at ELF.
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